long time

so... school started and the weather is getting colder. at the game last night, i had to wear my sweater at the end. fall makes me so sad, for some reason. maybe its just school.

i hope ill be more social now that i can drive but i doubt that seeing as how mom wants me to get a job. mmm... money.

i wish i was rich, but not in the horrible snobby sense. i wish i had a beautiful comfortable life. that i lived in palm beach or southern california in a huge house on the beach and that i bought nice things when i went shopping and that i had designer purses. that i could look at the magazines i buy and say, ill buy that purse next time i'm in paris. and that i could spend my summers on the mediterranean or in new york with my pretty and rich friends and that we had parties and nice clothes and tons of friends, even if they were fake, and that when i woke up in the morning, i would open up my walk in closet and choose from all the pretty colorful clothes i'd have. and that i'd sit on the beach in brazil with a designer swim suit and big glasses sipping a nice drink. and that i could hire a photographer and have a portfolio, even if i wasn't a model. and that i could have a nice car that everyone would admire, and that i'd have girlfriends over all the time and we could just chat about boys and other friends and clothes and social events.

am i superficial?
i dont think so.

last night, i went to the porter ridge vs monroe game at monroe, i picked up shane and alan and talked to hannah and some band people at the game, and we actually scored twice, which is better than losing without any score at all. and then i took some kid to chili's and dropped shane off and got wendys with alan and a deer ran in front of me, THAT was scary, and took alan home. i think he was sad about his girl miranda, but thats personal. right after school i went to elliot's, i love being with him, even if he isnt the cutest guy ever. i love him.

i wonder who i'll marry.

elliot is leaving sunday and hes going to be gone for most of this week, i'll miss him.
time to go straighten my hair so ill look somewhat attractive.
kisses*